There is SO much I’ve wanted to say so I split it up into 2 blog posts. You can read “A Letter to My Former Self” here.
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart…..” Jeremiah 1:5
First, this is a CELEBRATION.
I went into labor Jan 6th(her due date) at 11:00 after watching the finale of Downton Abbey and a special on Paul Simon and had her the next morning at 5:30 am.I’ve repeatedly said this but I’ll say it again. The world became a more vibrant place the day Shiloh Marion Wallace was born January 7,2013…all 7 lbs 12 oz and 19 inches of her.
The only way I can describe it is if you’ve seen the Wizard of Oz, you know how it turns from black and white to color? That was our home that day.
I feel like it was yesterday. I remember when they brought her to me and those little beady eyes stared into my soul like she knew me better than I did. She understood…she understood that the greatest love in that moment was this scarred imperfect human being. If that doesn’t give you a glimpse of God’s love, then I don’t know how else to describe it. EUPHORIC is the word. I really do think babies know more about what’s going on around us more than we do…their senses are fresh. They sense fear, joy, sadness, and peace. Of course, what did she sense the first 3 months of her life? MAMMA…only wanted to be held by me, rocked by me, bounced by me, worn by me, etc…Taxing for sure but rewarding nonetheless.
The joy I’ve felt in becoming this child’s mother and watching my husband be an amazing father has been priceless. It took teamwork….it brought us closer even when we wanted to pull each other’s hair during those midnight feedings, snapping at each other for lack of sleep, etc…It still brought us closer and made us stronger.
Rolling over at 5 months, crawling at 7 months, and still working on walking, each marked a day of wonder….it’s like watching The Little Train That Could. “I think I can..I think I can…”In faith, they just keep trying and doing until they get it. I seriously learned so much spiritually from my own child.
I love her laugh, her determination, her laid back demeanor, her spunk, her mullet hair, those piercing hazel eyes and her love for others.
I love it when she blows raspberries, kisses, gives high-fives, waves, says, “dada”(still working on mamma), dances, sings and reads to herself,puckers her lips,gives the stank face, holds out her hands reaching for her daddy, etc..
I love you Shiloh Marion. Happy Birthday baby bird.
“Make no mistake about why these babies are here – they are here to replace us.” Jerry Seinfeld
These next 3 photos were taken by Katie Weber Photography
The next 4 images were taken by Danielle Brooks Photography